Feelings, a meaning!
I was once crying during one emotional crisis and all of the sudden I got really mad at myself for feeling the way I was feeling. "WHY ARE YOU ALLOWING YOURSELF TO FEEL THAT WAY?", "WHY ARE YOU SO WEAK AND SENSITIVE ?", "WHY CAN'T YOU BE STRONG?" WHY...WHY..WHY...
Today I think about it with a smile on my face because I finally allowed myself to understand the fact that there is no BECAUSE to feelings. Feelings are felt, they are not chosen so I have no reason to feel guilty about it. I mean, how can you be mad or feel guilty about something that you have no control on?
- hello, how are you?
- doin great and you?
- (deep breath) uhhmm fine nau. Hope you're not busy tho
- na, I'm just on my bed scrolling on insta
- oh okay, enjoy oh
- yeahhh! wasup?
- nothing much, I just called cauz I miss you
- (silence)
-dont think too much about it, no pressure, no expectation I just wanted to talk to you
- I'm sorry
- lol, your reaction is so depressing. bossu abeg talk to me or should I comot from your phone?
- no, no I'm cool
- then talk
- how was your day?
- ihn, it was daily, like normal
laughing...
- ei that's another level of answer oh
- I swear, it shocked me sef. how was yours?
- the same wahala, going up and down
- I can see that, you look tired
- yeahh
- have you eaten? please don't tell me bread and eggs
- haha, no I got some fufu on my way back with...
I hate you with all my love...
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